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Well, a year is gone, and where did it go?  It’s been a crazy year, but an interesting one.  I almost wish that I could go back and do it over again, because I made many mistakes this year.  Although, if it was possible, I’m not so sure that I wouldn’t make the exact same mistakes.  I accomplished little this year, in preparing for my future, that is.  The bad thing is that I had the chance to do alot, and I missed it.  That was the biggest mistake of all.  The question now is: will I do the same thing this year?

It is not my intention to do so, but the road to hell is paved with good intentions.

Here is how I’m going to make this year better:

1. Get my sleep under control.  I need to go to sleep earlier, and get up earlier.  I think this is really the basis of all my problems.  I can’t remember the last time I got a good nights sleep (outside of the hospital).
2. Get my eating habits better.  I need to eat healthier and more often.
3. Get back to going to the gym.  This is connected to number 1 because I stopped going to the gym because of my sleep.  I can do better than that.  I will follow the plan the doctor gave me.
4. Actually read the books about social anxiety that I’ve bought.   I need to learn more about it, because even though I’m better than I was at the end of September, there is still a long road ahead of me.
5. Dedicate time each evening to the following things: writing in my journal, sketching out drawings in my sketch journal, programming and playing the euphonium.  I need to do these things to keep my creativity flowing.
6. Paint something at least once a month.
7. Keep my apartment in a half decent state.
8. Keep my dream journal religiously

There area other things I need to do, and other goals I have, but they are not for writing about in a public forum.  These are simple things that I do have the capability of doing; I just need to do them.

I should probably add something about getting out and meeting new people, but that will be something I just have to play by ear.  During the week, I’m not going to have much free time, and unless I get my sleep habits under control this will all be pointless.

Sleep – it really does come down to that, I think.  If I can just get that under control…

In other news, I played an awesome game of Rummy with Tara tonight.  We actually played every single card in the deck!  That’s never happened to either one of us before, and it was really fun.  Intense too.  I’m so lucky to have her as a friend.

Well, I guess that’s all for now.

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Well, it’s back home for Christmas, and some trip it’s been already!  It’s always a mixture of things that greet me here when I come back.  First, it was good to be back with my family again, and to talk to a few of my friends here.  Hopefully I’ll get to see them too while I’m here, but that is still uncertain.

I went out to day to go to certain businesses to see about finding a job.  Unfortuneately, I was not at all successful, as everywhere was closed!  I suppose I should have expected that, but it was disheartening, especially since I need to head back to KC on Wednesday.

It was great to hear from Tara on Christmas!  I was surprised, but it was nice.  She is the greatest friend, and I love her.

We went to Galena to visit the family on my dad’s side on Christmas.  That’s always an interesting experience.  I think one of my cousins, Nikki is going to come to KC on Thursday!  That ought to be fun.  One of my other cousins, Danny, was there for a short time with his wife and child!  It was great to see him, although I didn’t get a chance to really talk to him.  It’s strange for me to know that he is the same age as I, and he already has a family!  Part of me really envies that, especially after seeing them all together.  Family is an incredible thing.

I did discover something rather interesting.  Even though the library was closed, I could pull my car up to the outside and connect to their wireless internet!  It was funny because I would be working for a while with a great signal, and then it would get weak, so I would move my car up a foot or two, and it would be better.  Then a few minutes later, it would go weak again, so I would move back, and it would be better.  I lost track of how much time I spent there, or how many times I made this maneuver.

I took my little sister to go see Chronicals of Narnia for Christmas (today).  The movie was as great as ever, but the people!  God!  Do they not know the meaning of respect here in lebanon?  I mean, I know it’s bad for church, concerts, graduations, or any sort of public gatherings, but for some reason I just sort of thought a movie would be better.  People were getting up and coming back, making a ton of noise, talking loudly (sometimes on cellphones).  I just wanted to stand up and yell for them to be quiet and watch the movie!  After all, that’s what we were THERE FOR!  Is nothing sacred in Lebanon?  They do the same exact thing in church, at concerts (serious concerts where you’re supposed to be quiet),  during Graduation, or practically anything.  GOOD GOD!

Well, I guess that’s all for now.  Until next time, so long, do well, win awards, and thanks for all the fish.  See you in the funny papers.

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